So some of you may of noticed the blog taking a total nose dive, I honestly don't know where to start and I'm not sure if this post will be published at all, but I needed to write it down and get it all out.
The thing is I'm not good, I'm really struggling I have been for a while. I honestly feel like I've hit rock bottom. These two years have felt like Groundhog Day and I've been re-living the same day over and over. I get up feed and dress the kids, come home do the housework, pick the kids up, feed and bath, dress, stories, read. Tidy up again. I got to the point where I was dropping the kids off at school then going back to bed until it was time to pick them up again. I became irritated and snappy and felt there was no ME left at all. I've been suffering from anxiety and panic attacks when I'm on my own or have to go out by myself, which are really worrying.
The previous writing was written six months ago and I'm glad to report that I'm feeling so much better my family urged me to seek help and I'm now on a course of tablets that are making me feel a lot better. I also started working again, only 20 hours a week but i feel a part of me is coming back and I've also since lost 19lbs in weight. Which was something that I was stuck with as well.
I'm really trying hard to be regular poster again now and get back up to speed with the blog side of things, I hope you all stick around.